Dwells in My Heart By HS Wang I saw the transformation of my father.
My dad had a bad temper. I never saw him smile. For a long time, he didn’t believe in God. Once, he suffered from serious pain of a chronic disease. My mom said it was due to gas in his intestine. The doctor had long ago declared it incurable because he could not be operated on due to his age.□ This time the pain became so severe that he was motionless and could barely hold on to a table.□ My mom found someone to transport him to the hospital. The minute my dad went out of the door, she kneeled down in tears and prayed.
It was not long before my dad came back home. It turned out to be that when he arrived at the hospital, the doctor examined him and said there was nothing wrong. My mom told him that God healed him because she kept praying for him. “Now, it’s time for you to believe in Him.” She said. My dad submitted himself wholeheartedly to God after this incident. He completely transformed himself and became a very gentle and soft person. He never experienced that illness again in his life.
I was a stone hearted person.
After my dad died, I lived alone with my mom. Our life changed suddenly because we lost the source of our economic supply. My mom had been a homemaker all her lifetime and had no experience in the job market. I was still young and in school. A lot of people came to our rescue and they called themselves brothers and sisters. Every time they helped us, they used to say it was God’s love for He says, “As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” All the time, people came to our home, studied the Bible and prayed together. I heard them say a lot like, “Trust and obey Jesus, you will experience the real joy and peace.”
I came from a Christian family filled with the abundance of God’s words. I also witnessed the firm faith of my mom and the drastic transformation of my dad. I was surrounded by many live witnesses and testimonies. I ought to be have been overwhelmed by the richness of these experiences. Yet I was drawn into the world. I solicited many excuses not to go to these gatherings and didn’t persist in reading the Bible.
I told myself frequently that I am too busy with work and rest to engage in these activities. I am truly thankful to God. He chose me and never abandoned me, not even one day. Even better, he looks after me and covers me with his mercy and blessings. I kept on rebelling against Him. I would go to Him for my difficulties and pushed Him out of my life as soon as those difficulties were ironed out. Such instances happened once, twice, and I would always go back on my own words.
I came to the US.
I didn’t feel the grace of God until I was about to embark on the journey to the US. The journey itself was like a mission impossible to many but everything became possible in His hands. Therefore, every time I come before God, I feel I owe Him immensely. I believe He is full of mercy and love. On the journey to the US, I packed a Bible in my bag and read it when I had time.
Every time I called home, those brothers and sisters always asked me whether I had found a church to worship. When I told them not yet, they replied, “We pray for you every day to find a church.” It suddenly dawned on me that I had squandered the days of coming close to God while I was back in China. I didn’t take it seriously about worshiping together. Not only that, I chose to avoid them. I truly missed these brothers and sisters. When I was helpless, I craved for calling them.
It was totally by accident. I met a sister on the street. She said to me, “I can take you to a church if you like.” I felt a convulsion in my heart and thanked God wholeheartedly for His greatness and wonderfulness because I seldom strolled on the street. One morning, I saw that sister in front of a shop and asked her brusquely, “What are you doing here?” I immediately felt impolite because we didn’t know each other at the time. That sister said, “I am waiting for a bus to go to church.”
Later on, as I walked on the street, I couldn’t help thinking aloud, “What a wonderful God! What a perfect purpose! What if I didn’t go out that morning, I wouldn’t have been able to find a church so soon? Or what if I didn’t approach that sister and initiate that conversation, I wouldn’t have been able to find the church either.” There are so many unknowns and variables yet with God everything became so easily possible. After I come to church, I experience the word of God deeper and eventually find Him who never forsakes me.
What about you my dear friend? Perhaps you are struggling with brokenness and have no where to turn. Or maybe you need healing and strength to move on from the pain in your past.□□ You can receive Christ right now by faith through prayer. Praying is simply talking to God. God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude of your heart. Here's a suggested prayer:
Lord Jesus, I want to know you personally. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life to you and ask you to come in as my Savior and Lord. Take control of my life. Thank you for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Make me the kind of□person you want me to be.
Does this prayer express the desire of your heart? You can pray it right now, and Jesus Christ will come into your life, just as He promised.□
Is this the life for you?
If you invited Christ into your life, thank God often that He is in your life, that He will never leave you and that you have eternal life. As you learn more about your relationship with God, and how much He loves you, you'll experience life to the fullest.
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